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Saturday, March 26, 2005
Went out wif huiyi,weina and xiaoqing. yesterday...
wanted to catch a movie and shop in town..but something happened...
we took the mrt thr, approaching bunoa vista...all of a sudden..heard screeches..and the mrt stopped..well for those who heard the news..u guys will noe wad i'll be saying..the accident..a man's slipper dropped onto the track, he went to picked it up..but he was too late..the mrt came..i was in the train...the train hit him..all of our expressions were pale..at first we thot it was something tt dropped onto the track..but it turned out to be someone..we were all inside thr train..den a uncle walk past us..he said something like, " a man..on the track, got hit, now under the mrt, on the track..." when we heard it..we were very very shocked..huiyi began to cry..i was praying hard tt the person will be safe..ppl around me..i culd see them helding their hands together and started praying hard...so waited abt 15-20 mins..they opened one door for all of us to get out of the train..so the door they opened was actually near the accident scene..so we have to walk pass it..it was at my right..so i tried to look to the left all the while..some ppl were crowding around the accident scene...as i see their expressions, i noe it wasnt pleasant to see..so i looked away..walked to the far end..let's jus pray tt the man rest in peace..
so we were deciding wad transportation we can get to go to town...found no transportation except for taxi..so we wanted to hail a cab..but saw bus no. 190...which goes to town..went to the bus stop...boarded it...but some how we took the wrong side..which went back to bukit batok..so we changed again..went to bugis instead..went to watch 'Miss Congenality 2: armed and fabulous'...find the story okay only...not very nice...as we noe..this kind of movie is common..bout kidnapping..nth special..only for the humorous parts...tt's all..so after the movie shopped around and went to take neoprint as they wanted to...so after taking went home..as it was alr 8 plus..reached home nearly at 9...i jus cant put my mind off bout tt incident...i guess tt incident wuld be etched in my memory forever..sad..i shall drop this topic...
tt's all...
`peace out*
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Thursday, March 24, 2005
It's been quite some time since i blogged..due to my busy schedule? well..i guess so..might not be blogging tt much...cos of my studies..[this is gonna be quite a long post]
recently got back my report card..i did really bad like hell..for once in my studies, i did this bad..gotta reflect..the day after i got back my report card, i reflected on my results and wad my form teacher told me..i really really realised i shldnt be slacking anymre..i played to much in class? ya..i guess so..tt's wad my teacher said. she said "u're a clever person. but the prob is u played to much and not focusing on my studies.." ya..i sorta agree wif her..so tt nite..i culdnt sleep..i reflected alot..really alot..frm 12 am till 4 am in the middle of the nite, i jus culdnt sleep. i was tinking so much...even tears were on my eyes..i told myself not to cry..all i have to do is wrk hard..no play..
but sch started..i still played? cos of the ppl around me tt have influenced me? i guess so..but i culdnt push the blame on them..cos i myself wanted to join in the fun too...man!..this cant go on..i'll defintely retain for sure..i fear of being retained..this shldnt go on..i mus change..or maybe i play in sch? not focusing..and at home..i'll study like hell..tt's not a solution..maybe i play..but study hard too..sigh...dun wanna talk bout tt anymre..
Got my parents to sign it..eversince tt, they've been nagging at me non-stop..no matter wad i do, they seemed to be not happy wif it..i jus have this feeling..i like sch den home..as in the time i spent in sch..home issnt as sweet as i tink...i dun wan anyone to tink tt im having some kind of depression or home sick..but im not...im not...
i need to come online to blog..blogging is the only way tt i can express bout my personal feelings...whr else or who else can i talked all these to? no one seems to be interested..i dunno who to tell..so all i can do is blog..and now? they forbid me to use the com...maybe for jus a few hours and during the weekends only...damn, this is not good...sadd..
hmm..shall not talk bout it anymre...bout this week? i dunno how to describe..every thing's so sucky...sigh..no mood to talk abt...i jus feel down...tt's all..
`peace out*
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Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Recently bought 2 of Green Day's album. "International Super Hits" and "American Idiot"...wanted to get those album long before. for "International Super Hits", it's a mixture of the album 'Dookie', 'Insomaniac', 'Warning' and 'Nimrod'...those tracks featured in those cd were put in "International Super Hits"...yep, and im loving it. for "American Idiot", it was Green Day's most recent album. the tracks inside are all awesome. and if those who have not realised, it's actually a story. story of 'jesus of suburbia'...it's a very long story...how he met St. Jimmy and whatsername. it's a nice story. life abt jesus of suburbia...etc. All This will be the reason y i only respect Green Day and their songs. =]
This is the story of 'american idiot',
DEFINITIONS IN THE STORY:
J./JOS/the Idiot of America: The Jesus of Suburbia
Tunny: Random person met on the street who Jimmy befriends
The Underbelly: JOS/Jimmy's group of friends
Mom and Brad: JOS' parents. The way that JOS refers to his father as Brad, could mean that is father is gone and Brad is a stepfather, which would explain why he's calling him by name.
AMERICAN IDIOT:
The title track of the album. Basically, there's a confused, disoriented, angsty kid wrapped around a world of misconception and he has nowhere to go and feels hopeless and miserable. So this kid, the Jesus of Suburbia, is just crying out an anthem for the world to hear, screaming miserably "Don't wanna be an American Idiot..." He sees that he's stuck in this 'redneck agenda' and there's not a damn thing he can do to change it.
JESUS OF SUBURBIA (CITY OF THE DAMNED, I DON'T CARE, DEARLY BELOVED, TALES OF ANOTHER BROKEN HOME) :
Everyone on the album has their own track. Jesus of Suburbia basically introduces us to the Jesus of Suburbia, how he was brought up in rage, and love, his atmosphere, friends, and basic general information.
Part I, JOS, is just an introduction. "I'm the son of rage and love, the Jesus of Suburbia..."...
Part II, City of The Damned, is just a crying out for help, hating his town, his city, and his overall miserable life that he lives.
Part III, I Don't Care, is properly named and is about just that. JOS' apathetic screams of pain and how he just doesn't fucking care about anything anymore.
Part IV, Dearly Beloved, is JOS asking if what he's feeling is natural, how he can get out, and if anyone can understand...Tales Of Another Broken Home,
Part V, is basically the end of the anthem. JOS is fed up, fucked up, and just decides to quit town and quit the life that he's living. "I don't feel any shame, I won't apologize. When there ain't NOWHERE you can go. RUNNING AWAY from pain, when you feel victimized, tales from another broken home"...and he just leaves.
HOLIDAY:
So JOS has just left town and he's living his life on the streets (Hear the sound of the falling rain...). He's speaking outloud and acting in vein :P, but it seems like he's talking himself into the fact that running away was the right thing to do. Explaining his reasons of discontent to himself. He still feels alone, and shunned from society, but it seems he feels a little more self-confidence, and happiness out on the road. It is also remotely political with the whole "Zeig heil..." thing, but it's basically just JOS yelling out and expressing his own dead beliefs onto the world. Like screaming into mid air. Also, to go 'on holiday' is said to be like, a vacation. So this is basically like an escape, a runaway. This leads us into Boulevard of Broken Dreams.
BOULEVARD OF BROKEN DREAMS:
JOS is out alone, on the cold streets, nothing to do, nowhere to go. The happiness has worn off and he walks alone. Everyone's asleep, no one can hear him, no one cares, and he just walks...
ARE WE THE WAITING?:
Still, alone, living it rough. JOS plays tricks in his mind, and you can see his slowly losing his sanity. He even starts to not believe who he is anymore. He's not the king of his local 711 out on the streets, where no one knows who he is...he's not the Jesus of Suburbia anymore. He's just...there.
Now is where the controversy starts. The album picks up into an angry, purely amazing, anthem about the ever-so-lovely St. Jimmy. Now, people have said, and this sounds pretty true, that the JOS is just pushed over the edge, turned into this new fuck you punkfuck named St. Jimmy. Basically, pushed off of the deep end into schizophrenia. Green Day, actually has stated, that JOS meets this kid, St. Jimmy, on the street somewhere, but that's questionable. I'll leave the interpretation up to you.
ST. JIMMY:
Fast, upbeat, so effing hardcore. St. Jimmy...the patron saint of the denial. Tough, rough, not afraid to kill. The run of the mill punkkid times 70. The hardest, baddest mother fucker around. He's lived his life on the streets, knows all, sees all. Lies, and pretty cocky to boot. He can actually be seen as a foil to JOS, who's totally innocent and callow going into this thing.
GIVE ME NOVACAINE:
JOS meets Jimmy and becomes close with him. They do drugs together, hang around together and JOS depends on Jimmy to keep him sane, without knowing anyone else. Give Me Novacaine is basically his experimentation with drugs, and how Jimmy introduces him to drugs to ease the pain of everyday life.
SHE'S A REBEL:
While on the streets, Jimmy and JOS meet a rebel girl named Whatsername. As described in She's A Rebel, she's holding on JOS' heart like a hand grenade. For JOS, it's love at first sight. It's a basic introduction to the girl, and a new twist in JOS' heart strings. New feelings, new mindset, new atmosphere.
EXTRAORDINARY GIRL:
Again, about Whatsername. JOS' feelings for her, what he thinks of her, etc...
LETTERBOMB:
After getting close with Whatsername, there is an eventual breakup. The beginning "Nobody likes you, everyone left you..."...is Whatsername taunting JOS, and writing him a goodbye letter. She explains that JOS doesn't care enough, and that he isn't who he thinks he is. "You're not the Jesus of Suburbia. The St. Jimmy is a figment of, your father's rage and your mother's love, that's made the idiot america"...she's explaining that JOS has turned into what he's always hated and she leaves him. "Well she said I can't take this place, I'm leaving you behind. She said I can't take this town I'm leaving you tonight..."
WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS:
JOS is alone again. Lost his friends, the only girl he ever loved, he's out of home, out of job, and back where he started, sad and alone on the streets. He describes himself as innocent, or at least he was, and he just didn't last. They broke him down, and he's just dead inside. This is also, on a more personal note, a side song about Billie Joe's late father, who died years ago (September 1982), when Billie Joe was 10. Both explanations apply.
HOMECOMING (THE DEATH OF ST. JIMMY, EAST 12TH ST., NOBODY LIKES YOU, ROCK 'N' ROLL GIRLFRIEND):
JOS has nothing left to do. He's been on the streets. He stands alone again. So where else to go? Home. Part I, the Death of St. Jimmy. He's leaving the streets, he's going back, he's leaving Jimmy behind. He realizes that turning away wasn't the answer, and he's gained nothing from it except knowledge that life is no better in a different atmosphere. He hoped for too much, and got nothing in return. St. Jimmy kills himself, in a sense, in JOS' mind he's gone. Still, there's no one who cares, and nobody cares. Part II, East 12th St, tells us that JOS met and accepted conformity, got a job, and is just in his own world as people move around him. He'd rather be out and around with 'the underbelly', his friends. He feels trapped. Alone, and again, must get away. "This lifelike dream ain't for me"...Part III, Nobody Likes You. He's still depressed about losing Whatsername, as he waits for her to return, but no luck. All of his dreams at this point are shot to hell, as her voice still pounds in his head "NOBODY LIKES YOU, EVERYONE LEFT YOU..." Part IV, Rock 'N Roll Girlfriend, in the inlay, is shown as a postcard from "Tunny"...who seems to be another person JOS met while on the streets. Tunny explains that he's living it up where he is, and the rebel life he leads, while JOS is rotting with his dead end job, in his dead end life. Part V, We're Coming Home Again, is JOS accepting things. He's coming to the realization of everything and everyone, and is just accepting it. He comes home. It's left on a confusing note. He's not sure if he's happy or sad, he's just home, living, and he just...is.
WHATSERNAME:
After being home, and just living in normality, he still regrets losing Whatsername. It's been so long, he can't even remember her name. He wonders what happened to her, and can only remember. All he has is his memories of her. The album ends with him still trying to forget "If my memory serves me right, I'll never turn back time, forgetting you, but not the time."...He doesn't regret living his life on the streets, using it as a learning experience, but still tries to forget Whatsername, and the pain that she put him through, and vice versa.
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Friday, March 11, 2005
Seoul Garden. wenta eat seoul garden wif hui yi.jian ming and eddie. lol. our real motive to go thr is not to eat. is to play wif da food. as in mixing lotsa stuffs together and dare ourselves to eat them. but on da other hand was also to enjoy da food. hmm. now i noe y so so many ppl says seoul garden's food suck. well. i tink they really suck. lol. reasons for it, they have very few variety of food. mostly meat. and the meat wasnt nice at all. the marination sucked, they dun even noe how to marinate them. eww. it sucked. and the sushi they made. oh gosh! the salmon and the rice wasnt nice at all. the salmon was so not fresh! eww. hahaha. dun mean to bring down their title. but it really sucked. im not da only who said tt. so many ppl told me the food thr was not delicious at all. so wanted to try it out. all seemed to be true. i guess da only nice food thr was da Ice-cream...hehe. haha. it was not made by them though, it was frm marigold. haha.
So, bout da mixing of food...hmm, basically. we add in wadever we can find. we put in ice-cream. da soup. meat. chilli sauce. oil. fries. fruits. lemon tea. coke. green tea. sea shell. hotdog[raw]. and many other bits and pieces. LOL. it was DISGUSTING man! hahaha. i've captured da photo of it. scroll down for it. anw, we played game. called da 'open-number' whr we eat choose da number. 1-5. den add up. den count who's tt person. each person will den have to a spoonful of it. plus some food. not only the soup.well. i was lucky at first. i didnt lose at all. i tink the one who ate the most was Eddie. haha. he was unlucky though. at first it taste very very nice. taste jus like strawberry milkshake. wahahas. den afta tt we added things again. it somehow taste like vomit. it was really disgusting. yucks! haha. i was lucky throughout. i didnt get to taste a mouthful of it. so in the end they say they not happy. coz i didnt eat any. lol. so last game. they say, if i was the one, i have to eat 4 mouthfuls in a row. aites. jus my luck! i lost. wahaha.so i have to eat 4 mouthfuls of it. it was wif fries. the soup was okay. but da fries in it made me wanted to vomit coz it's hard to swallow it together wif da soup. so ended up wanting to puke. haha. was so full afta tt. lol.
not da first time. the first time was me and eddie. we drank coke. not normal one. but coke tt was left for 2 days. wif paper and pen ink in it. and me shaking it all da while. lol. tt one i was really scared. coz the ink might be posionous. so only me and eddie played. i drank one cap. and he drank one cap. haha.
today was green tea+ lemon tea+ chewing gum. not really disgusting. it was okay. haha.
lol. i tink tt's bout all. haha.
`peace out*
`disgusting aint it? haha.
`maybe we shld'nt have played wif food. kinda guilty. wahahas.
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Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Muscle cramp. had bball training today. the training was okay. not really tt tough this time round. b4 tt, i was tinking whether i shld go for da training. went for it in the end. as i've skipped quite alot of training already. ran at the start of the training den b4 we went off we ran at the bball court for another 10 rounds. aites. shall not talk bout it anymre. walked home afta tt. wif my leg's muscles aching so so badly. den walked up da stairs. bad thing happened. i tink i've strained or pulled my leg muscle. or dunno isst a muscle cramp. the pain was unbearable. i can't even move my leg. it has turned into a 'U' shape. like disformed. it was so painful. i sat down in the middle of da pathway, on da stairs.i have totally no energy to walk. omg. i tink of tt i have phobia of taking the stairs alr. den sat at my sofa and rested. it happened once again. this time was my foot. same thing. 'U' shaped. eww... LOL! it's not da first time anw. few weeks ago, it happened also...in da middle of my sleep. the pain woken me up. i cant move. i lied down thr like dead, waiting for da pain to go away. tears were coming out of my eyes. LOL! nah...i didnt cry.
Pain. Pain. Pain. gosh....
haha. i tink today was becuz i haven been training for quite a time. so muscle cramp. lol. i'll be praying hard tt it wun happen again.!
`peace out*
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Monday, March 07, 2005
Bullied. OMG. they've gone to the extend of taking my shoe and my socks! LOL. im being bullied by those seated around me! lol. not only guys. the gal seated right behind me also! u shld noe who u're ya? LOL. fun though. but irritated at times. and i even fought wif them. haha.
lol. im posting this coz i really have nth to do. to kill my boredom. lol. im bored bored bored. =]
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Sunday, March 06, 2005
Dance works. went to watch da dance works at suntec today.met huiyi den went thr. we went thr early was wif nadia and gang. they're doing da cheers. saw them performed. performance was excellent. nice. LOL. the cheer was un-clear though. but can see tt effort was put in by them. the dance by them was nice too. but cant see much energy frm them. so in the end we lost. won nth. didnt get into da finals. sucha pity. but i like our performance though we lost. i tink da champions was by woodlands sec. they really put on a great show. i even captured their performance. lol. Finals is at da Expo. dunno we're allowed to go thr to watch anot. hopefully. had lotsa fun seating at the atrium wif da gals. was thr singing and grooving to da music. cheered along too. lol. fun indeed. these are some of da photos i captured wif my phone. didnt manage to capture da dance one cuz someone's head was blocking and i cant get my eyes off frm da performance! lol.
`our cheerleaders. loud but un-clear.
`them again. nice performance.
`this is da champion's team performance.
`this is jus da stage.
tt's all.
`peace out*
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Saturday, March 05, 2005
Results.for common test. didnt do quite well this time.did real bad for some of da subjects. i'll jus post those i remb.
English: 12/30 [ wrote out of point. yea, agreed. i chose the wrong topic. i alr regretted tt day.]
Chinese: 21.5/100 [hahas. expected. didnt study for it.the lowest i got]
Math: 28/40 [Hmm. so-so. good is wad teacher wrote.]
Physics: 19.5/25 [ Good.the best i got i tink. =]
Chemistry: 26/50 [Jus a pass.]
Poa: [i forgot but i failed i remb.new to da subject?hahas.i dunno.cuz i wasnt paying attention her her lesson]
Social Studies: 16/25 [Moderate. not tt good]
aites. tt's all. results werent tt sastifactory. esp. chinese. pathetic 21.5/100. LOL.
wee~ cant wait to see the Dance Works tmrw. =]
`peace out*
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Friday, March 04, 2005
Boring. Havent been updating these fews days or rather weeks. nth much to talk abt. even if i update no one will read or seems to cares. but dairy are meant to be kept as a secret. makes no difference. this week in sch, everything are the same. same old routine. sick and tired of it. but somehow i was being bullied. by those guys and gals seated around me. throwing bits and pieces of rubber on me. well, rubber fight? sounds so childish. but it's fun though. =] Hmm.today, played wif paper-plane. we challanged, see whose plane fly the furtherest. i lost, i got 2nd. Lol. so so childish, but we didnt fly it in the class. we flew it outside, in the open-air. my fren flew all down. so many pf paper-planes on the floor. tt's the only fun part.flying it in the open-air. aites. tt's all. this coming sunday going to watch The Dance Works. at suntec. cuz our sch is taking part in it. gotta go and see them.cuz we have talented dancers in our sch? yea. gotta go and support them. hopefully our sch will get thur. Good Luck y'll! gotta blaze....=]
`peace out*
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